The other day I was driving and lamenting to myself about something..I honestly can’t remember what it was at this point and in the grand scheme of life, I am sure it was petty. In the course of my internal wrestling, I realized how much I missed writing. Becoming a mom certainly changed my entire life (more on that to come..) and I realized I missed this little corner of my world. I abandoned it for a while because I felt I had nothing to say. My former adventurous, traveling the world life has been replaced with a job in corporate America and I often found myself struggling to find any purpose or sense it in all. Mostly though,I was struggling with hitting the publish button because I while I have countless blogs written, I would get to the end and think to myself, no one wants to read this and so it would be put on the shelf and another few months would go by. Near the end of my drive, I decided I was going to stop lamenting and take up writing again. But I was going to shift my focus to write about the adventures and joys and struggles of being a working mom. I landed on this because here in little southern Indiana, I feel like somewhat of an anomaly and because it is something I do every single day.
According to a statistic from Bureau of Labor Statistics, the percentage of women (with spouses) working with children in the house under 18 is 67.8% . There are a lot of us moms who work out there. And yet, there is still this stigma attached to it which somehow seems to translate being a working mom into a task we grudgingly do while we spend our days wishing we could all stay at home. I do not say this to start any mommy wars, because come on, being a mom is hard enough, we should all just stop with the drama and pettiness. I say all this to give you a point of reference. Because.. deep breath..most days, I love being a working mom.
Ok, now pick your jaw up off the floor and stay tuned. I promise to write about the highs and the lows, I promise to not to impose my decision on you, and I promise to keep it real (also to write more than every 6 months). Because let’s be honest, one of my daily thoughts is, “I hope I don’t leak milk all over my shirt during my meeting.” And now I want to ask you for something. The next time you encounter a working mom, don’t pity her or ask her about staying home. Don’t add any guilt on her lap (trust me, she has enough of that). Just invite her for lunch or dinner or coffee because I promise you, she wants that more than anything and if you are fellow mom, you have plenty in common aside from your working vs. not working status to talk for hours.
Tomorrow my really good friend Micah is shipping out to the Navy in hopes of someday becoming a Navy SEAL. And I decided I hate it when people leave–this has happened a lot in my life in the past two years and I know it is only an indication of what is to come, but that doesn’t take away the sting. As I sit here, my mind is flooded with memories and I can’t help but wonder when I will see him again. I know in everything God has a plan and I know that there is nothing Micah would rather be doing. He’s ready to go and I am truly happy for him. I hope that he does accomplish his dream of becoming a Navy SEAL and I hope I do see him again in this life.
Deserves a book, not just a post..but since I only have a post and limited time this will have to do. First of all, I just have to say I love my class! They are seriously some of the coolest people you will ever meet. I got to know a lot of them a lot better and it was awesome. Things you never knew about people until you live with them or spend 12 hours on a bus with them. I also must say I am going to miss them so much next year..it’s hard to think we are graduating soon and never again will I see all of them in one place at one time.. but enough of the sad moment..
There were so many memories made..who will ever forget Brittany’s good morning routine..haha..:) Well, actually-other then Jordan and Rebecca no one will remember it.. I laughed so many times so hard.. My class is hilarious..but you can all ask us about the funny moments if you want.
God taught me so much on the senior trip..and you all should def. look forward to it..it is awesome!! one of the things I learned was the importance of not letting failure get you down. Your whole life people will point out your failures, but the righteous man falls 7 times and gets back up..so the key is to get up! I also realized how many freedoms I have and how often I take them for granted. So many men and women died for me to live in the land of the free and so often I don’t do anything about it.
well..enough for now, i must move to more important things like finding a hairstyle for jr.sr…ugh..
love ya all
Have you ever taken a moment to ponder the blessings of God? Taken a minute to see how truly rich we are. Honestly, I had an awful day today..I felt horrible and have made some decisions that have put me in several rough situations. But I was walking out from school and after chatting with one of my friends for a minute, I realized how blessed I am. I have a school that rocks..I have teachers that actually care, which means a lot. And I have the most amazing set of friends..yeah, we go through the ups and the downs..but they always seem to forgive and forget..and are always encouraging me. Mr. Grass shared a verse with us this morning in bible class-Prov. 17:17, “A friend loves at all times and a brother is born for adversity.” I know that verse-I have memorized it on several various occasions..but I never took the time to actually think about what it was saying. A friend loves at all times..not some of the time, not when it’s convenient, but at ALL times. Now that’s not always the easiest thing..there are times I don’t want to love some of my friends..but that’s how a friend acts-they love at all times. But I think the part of the verse that really stuck out to me was the last part. I always read that verse and thought, yeah my brother has caused a lot of adversity in my life. But, it stuck out differently today..mind you..I have no biblical backing for this, it’s just my opinion..I have gone through serveral times of adversity in my life..and my brothers and sisters in Christ have always been there..it made me think, perhaps that’s part of what friends are for..to be there in the hard times. To stick it through in the thick and the thin. Maybe they are born to help me through my adversity, not to cause adversity. Regardless, I am so thankful for them..and so sad I have such little time left..
Just a thought..
I have to say dear Eve, I love you more then anything.
You always care and give Godly advice
Your words bring smiles to my face and oh the fun we have
Good-will trips, cheerleading, and I could go on
SMITE is going to be so much fun..
Thanks for always being there
Bosom friends forever and ever
I’m dedicating this post to Sarah G..no last names for security sake. I love her! She is always there to listen and share advice. I so much enjoy our 7th hour talks and have been so blessed to have her in my class the past 5 years. I remember all the fun times at her house..I still remember your broadway dance:) (although you probably don’t) I’m so glad you are my friend and I will always remember you! Thanks for being there and for always listening. Thanks for sharing the babysitting with me! As you continue to grow, always keep your love for God! It’s a constant encouragement to me! I love you girl!:)
I have to say I love all my friends..each and every one of you hold a special place in my life! You have all been there and have challenged me to grow and change. Although we may have had our rough moments, you have truly shown me the meaning of sticking with things. You have forgiven me and shown me that I too must also forgive. I have learned something from watching each one of you and have realized how truly blessed I am to be surrounded by so many Godly friends. My junior class..I love you! Seeing how much we have grown up has been a journey. I am so thankful for you..for the ways you have been an encouragement and have forced me to grow. I cherish all the memories..the good and the sad..I pray that as each of us grow up there is one thing that stays-our love for God! To the rest of my friends-whether you be at church, or just in different classes..I am equally thankful for you. I will never forget some of you..of the times we’ve shared..whether in BQT or on trips to the Wilds or many other memorable occasions. Keep growing in the Lord. Thank you all for your support, for your friendship, and for you examples. You will never know how much each of you mean to me! I pray for you all regularly and hope you continue down the road of the righteous.
Guys and Girlfriends..
If there is one thing in this world that doesn’t mix it’s guys and girlfriends. I have been on both ends of this..and I can tell you, no matter how many promises you make, they don’t mix. “I’d never choose a guy over you they say” and I have in fact said this myself. But once you start to like a guy and find the feeling is mutual, things are never the same. Oh, they may think it is..but the only thing they talk about is this guy. And instead of wanting to hang out with you on their open Friday nights, they want to hang out with that guy. And the worst part, is they think they are treating you the same. They still think things are peachy. And as much as I love hearing about my friend’s love lives, it gets old really quick. And please, don’t think I’m jealous..because I am not in the least. I could tell my own saga of guys to them, but I have chosen to focus on my savior.
I have given into the battle and I admit defeat. I know I am probably giving up to easily..but I’m not fighting for my friends’ attention. Too much is at stake. I’ll still be here if and when that guy breaks their heart..but sometimes actions are irreversible. I learned that lesson the hard way..and I still am working at rebuilding friendships I ruined all for a guy who could care less. but I know, they all think they have found the one. They think this is the key to their happiness. But let me tell you..it isn’t. And I wish you could see that. But like the defeated foe goes home from battle, shoulders drooping, eyes full of pain and anger-I too am walking away.
This week is exam week, and that means half days or 1/4 of days! Today I finished school at 9:20..and Eve came home with me for a bit. We are crazy silly together..and so that was fun! A smoothie and some jibberish later we went back to school to get Brittany and Taylor. We went to Culver’s to eat..fun times again! We came back to the school again..something your not supposed to do!:) Kelly, Eve and I headed off to the mall..broke. But we had so much fun..it was good to be able to just have fun and not worry about the rest of life. We tried on prom dresses..and I have officially decided they do not fit me:) Heavens’ knows what I’ll do when jr./sr. rolls around! LOL
I saw my old neighbor, which was cool. And I should be studying..I promise, after tomorrow I’ll write something that doesn’t end with, I should be studying:) Good luck on the rest of your finals!!
To my dear junior Cheerleading buddies..nothing against Erin or Danielle..I love you both!
Kayla-I am so super glad you came to Faith! You have become one of my closest friends and I am so thankful for you. Thanks for listening and for talking..I know I can always count on you for a laugh and for a serious conversation. Good luck with your “friend”, I know things will work out. Don’t ever doubt yourself. Sometimes I really hate cheerleading, but you always seem to make it seem all right. Thanks again for all you do..and I can’t wait for the next year and a half..it’s gonna be a blast! Finish out our junior year and then we’re gonna be big seniors! Keep smiling and don’t drink apple juice-it does weird things to you! I’m praying for you girl..I love you so much.
Eve-Although I have several blogs about you, this one is devoted to cheerleading. Thanks for doing it..I think I would have given up long ago if not for your “but she’s cute..” comments. You have inspired me and have become one good cheerleader:) And if not for your amazing sweet spirit, and desire to serve God I would probably hate you for it..but I love you..and just because your a better cheerleader aint gonna change that! Thanks for being my friend and for all the laughs..I will never forget the memories..Praying for you!!
I just gotta say..Juniors are pretty cool!