Stop it

So I should be sleeping..but I have too many thoughts going through my head to attempt to sleep, plus I am waiting for my best friend to get here!

Do you ever just want to tell people to stop it? That’s kinda how I feel right now..I just want people to stop-to stop telling me what I should and should not do. To stop telling me without this or that I am going to regret life or not make any money. To let me change my mind every freaking day and that be ok. I am just tired of it. I came to college being promised the best years of my life..they lied. I haven’t disliked all of it..but I am ready to be done. And if I drop one of my majors back to a minor then I will be able to graduate next December-a semester early!! Honestly, I can’t tell you how good that thought is looking right now. I am so ready to move on in my life. I am tired of people asking me what I am going to do with my life. I HAVE NO IDEA! I am majoring in economics–not the most specific degree, but I love it. However, I want to be a mom and a wife and do something that will impact people’s lives. You don’t have to have a degree to do that. And I will have a degree–a hard degree at that and one that will make it easier to get into grad school if I decide to do that. Maybe that is just me not being content, but I am homesick, lonely, frustrated more then half the time, and ready to be done with school. I put way too much pressure on myself to get good grades..which sometimes is a good thing, but doesn’t make me want to stay around any longer then I have to. And I am too grown for this whole scene. I want to be closer to my family..closer to my boyfriend..closer to the things important to me. So who cares if I don’t have the perfect resume or the most impressive college career-I serve a God who provides exactly when and what you need and who will NEVER leave nor forsake me. I have dreams and goals and aspirations that I will follow as far as God allows me and beyond that I will probably change my mind every day and that’s ok.

so stop it..