venting..

I just felt the need to write in my blog. It has been one of those weeks that can only be explained and made better through a blog post. I am back at school and it is going well. Things are better then expected with roommates and life is slowly getting busier, but still manageable. I have been working all week which has been crazy fun but crazy tiring. The one thing I really want right now is my pillow and my bed..but alas, I am stuck in a computer lab until 6 tonight. I played volleyball last night and hurt my wrist..typing is a challenge..but lucky for me, I have enough frustration to type through the pain.

so there is this boy..right..it’s always about a boy:) but I really like this one…like a lot..and I don’t know. I should hate him. he blew me off for three months, and just when I start to get an inch closer shoves me away again. So why can’t I just move on. that’s what logic says. But I’m a fixer..I love to fix things. I don’t like to leave things un-done or leave people without making their lives better..which I am coming to see isn’t usually even a reality..but I try nonetheless. However, it is impossible when they won’t let you help them or be part of their life. so that is where I am right now..wanting so bad to be part of his life and realizing that I should probably just move on….

but it’s hard…and I’m tired..and in pain…and missing my family something terribly awful..