Life had to be simpler. And easier to work on things like patience. When we didn’t have cell phones and e-mail and you couldn’t get ahold of someone it was ok. You just left a message or waited until they got home. Now if you can’t reach someone you get irritated, impatient, and in my case, mad at them. Is it really their fault that even though they are reachable through cell phone, e-mail, and phone that I can’t reach them? And why is it so important that I talk to them. Does it show my dependence on others? And my lack of dependence on God..YES. I want that human contact-I want to talk to that person who will audibly answer me back. And when they are unreachable I get frustrated, angry, and lonely. Yet, so often I fail to turn to the God who holds me in His hands. The God who knows more about me then anyone in this world, and has every step of my life already planned out. I have been doing a lot of thinking lately about my life and I can see a common thread–lack of dependence on God and too much dependence on others. And humans fail..they aren’t always available. Sometimes they are tired, busy, selfish etc. But God isn’t like that. He is always available! And as I laid in my bed last night with tears in my eyes, I could do nothing else but pour out my heart to God for no human was around to see or hear me. And it was at that moment that I found my strength and the peace to calm me. How awesome that we serve a God like that!
