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God’s little gifts!
This has been a crazy semester and it just started. I think I’ve already logged more time in the library then is good for any normal person. But oh well..hopefully the good grades will pay off someday. On a different note, I have become very thankful for little moments of encouragement. Like Sunday night when one of my sorority sisters and I decided to start praying together! and then yesterday, Angela called and said she was coming to see me!! and a few minutes later I got a call from one of my very good friends at camp! They were gifts from God as I sat in the library studying for a statistics test that I must pass!!
And my time in the Word has been really good lately. God has been blessing that and the time I have to spend alone.
And Friday or Sunday..depending on if you talk to me or Shawn is our two month–:) I’m excited..He is amazing. Too bad I am here and he is not..but I might get to see him in November which would be super exciting!
Back to work..
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Lake Ann Camp Summer 2007
I haven’t posted in awhile and I miss my blog so I am going to try to take it up again. I need something to escape from normality and I figured blogging might do it:)
This first post of my re-starting of my blogging is going to be about my summer. I think I could write a book about it..honestly. But a blog post will have to work and since there are probably only two of you who still read this, a book is probably overkill.
I spent my summer working as a camp counselor at Lake Ann Camp in Michigan. It is a Christian summer camp that runs 9 weeks of camp for campers ranging from 4th grade to just graduated from high school. It was the BEST experience of my life. I arrived the end of May and went through two weeks of staff training which I can assure you is the best training you could ever have. We played games every day and took field trips and went rafting..oh and learned some stuff in a classroom–but even that was fun and I learned so much about so many things. And supposedly was supposed to learn about how to be a counselor. Well, training is good..but experience is the only thing that I think can prepare you. We were assigned to a different program each week of the nine weeks of camp–I am just going to break down each week of camp.
Week 1-Senior High-the senior high program is amazing. Ken Rudolph is the speaker and he is incredible. This week I had 10 girls and they were truly a gift from God. It was my first week ever as a counselor and I was nervous. I had no idea if I was prepared for this or what this week would bring. Not to mention senior high can be the toughest program. But I learned so much about being open and vulernable with my campers and about how truely powerful God is. My guy partner for the week had a camper from Japan in his cabin who got saved Monday and by Friday decided to go back to Japan and win the country for Christ. It was pretty much amazing. Not to mention super convicting. My campers encouraged me so much and were an amazing start to my summer. oh and my team won the competition the first two days of camp–which ends with FIGHT NIGHT–a huge food fight where you pretty much get disgusting and lose your voice in the name of getting points for your team. Although I never lost my voice, plenty of my campers did.
Week 2-Junior High
Junior high is not my favorite-they are at a weird age and I had 13 this week. but God was good and several of them got saved which an amazing thing to experience–I fell in love with the gospel over the summer and with the power it has to change lives. my junior highers taught me patience each and every week. one of the things they do on the program is sleep outside under the stars-which ended up being one of my favorite things all summer. The night sky there is INCREDIBLE!
Week 3-Juniors
These are 4th and 5th graders–so cute! I had a camper who had a very hard heart which was sad to see in someone so young. But God was faithful and changed her throughout the week.
Week 4-Fresh Start
This was by far one of my favorite weeks of camp. Fresh Start is a program just for Freshman and it consists of two days at camp and three days white water rafting down the mighty Pine river–which is an oxymoron because it’s not mighty and there is no white water. but nonetheless it is a blast!! I was the only female counselor on the program this week and my six campers and I bonded closer than any other week. They taught me a lot about forgiveness and the power of the gospel. I also had so much fun with them. I miss them terribly. God taught me a lot about His greatness this week. Being outside for so much of the time makes you stand in awe of creation and of how Powerful God is.
Week 5-Senior High-This was a tough week–but God was good. my campers really opened up by the end of the week and I was up till almost 4 Friday night talking with them. It was amazing to see God’s goodness and provision for strength and energy.
Week 6- Junior High-I wanted to quit after this week. But God came through and I spent a lot of time over the weekend in prayer and in His word and was able to get re-focused and be excited about the end of the summer.
Week 7- Jump Start is a program just for sixth graders and is full of field trips!! we went to the bog..I wish I had pictures. but it is nasty! I had my first homesick campers of the summer–oh the joys of that! but I made some very close friends this week and had fun!
Week 8-Senior High-Def. one of my other favorite weeks. First of all because my partner was my now-boyfriend who is amazing. A gift from God to say the least. But beyond that my campers were girls that I would really relate to and talk to on a level that I hadn’t experienced before. They opened up and encouraged me. I also had the opportunity to lead one of my campers to the Lord after a week long battle with Satan…it was the moment that will stand out for the rest of my life.
Week 9- Junior High-a good way to end out the summer-I had several campers get saved and a great group of girls. and I saw 4 shooting stars!!Overall, I learned several big things. First, prayer is a powerful tool that Christians don’t utilize enough. I saw it work daily in my life and in the lives of my fellow counselors and campers. It is the thing that we all need more of in our lives. If we could get a grip on how powerful it is, we could change the world! Second, I learned that living for Christ is the best, most exciting way to live. I have no doubt I could have made more money working elsewhere, but the rewards of serving Christ in ministry FAR exceed the costs. I made some amazing friends and have memories I will take with me to the grave. It is what I want to do with my life-whatever minisitry that ends up being I know I want to serve Christ and win people to the Lord. Third, my eyes were opened to the power of the Gospel. I saw it week after week change lives in drastic ways. By the end of the summer we had seen 422 campers get saved. Thats 422 more people that will be in Heaven and that will make an impact on this world. I also realized how much I desire for none to perish. This is the message the world needs!!!
I could keep going, but if your still reading, you are probably ready to be done:). God is amazing-camp was awesome and if you ever want to hear me rant some more about it..just call!
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MY SUMMER
so I haven’t written in forever..but I just thought I would let you all know what I am doing this summer! I am working as a camp counselor at Lake Ann Camp!! It is amazing!! We are in week two of staff training and it is amazing!! God is doing so many awesome things in my life..and it is exactly what I need at this time!! I love all the new people I am meeting and can’t wait for the campers to get here!!
More later..
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so I have to leave for work in an hour..for ten long hours of work. And honestly, I usually don’t mind working, in fact, most of the time I would rather work then do anything else. But today I just want to crawl in bed and do nothing. I don’t want to think or talk to anyone or do anything other then sleep and hope life is different when I wake up. Granted, sleeping will do nothing to change my life currently, but it might make me feel better. I am frustrated and confused. And I have to move on from the past..but it keeps haunting me with what ifs and why nots. sometimes I wish I just had the guts to let it all out. To put exactly how I feel on the table and see what happens. I am almost sure nothing would change, but I wonder if that would give me the closure I need to move on. Or would it just make me wish I had kept my mouth shut.. I can’t though. If I am ever going to give someone else a chance, I have to get rid of these feelings and heartache. I have to accept the fact that in God’s eyes I am perfect and beautiful and no human can ever change that. No matter what they say. I have to trust in God’s perfect plan for my life, regardless of how unknown and scary it is. And beyond anything I have to stop talking about it and actually DO it. I am have to stop talking about moving on and actually move on. Oh if only it was as easily said as done. That’s it. I am done. I will be back later.
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Winter..and life in general currently..
So I woke up this morning to it being 21 degrees outside and snow flakes starting to fall. Needless to say that was not the best way to start a Friday morning. Sadly, I hate snow. I don’t know why, but unless I can stay in bed, I would rather it be hot and sunny. When I graduate I am moving somewhere warm, although with my luck I will get a job in Michigan:)
but on to a different topic, besides for the weather this is my favorite time of year. I absoultely love the holidays!! They make me so happy!! and I can’t wait to be home with my family. College is alright..but nothing compares to my friends and family back home. Soon I will be home.
These past few weeks have been trying..spiritually, emotionally, physically..I am stressed, overwhelmed, and tired of school. And while I was home I didn’t get to see my other half for long which was sad..I miss her something awful. and school this semester has overall been hard. my classes aren’t easy..as much as I love my new major it is different, and different is hard. The one person in my life who I want to talk to, I refuse to speak to. I won’t even say hi because I am stubborn. and I need to just move on, but I have never been super good at that. Beyond that, I lost what makes me happy..somewhere in all the stuff I am doing, all the classes I am taking, and all the people around me..I forgot what makes me happy. I lost it..and I want it back. The joyful, enthusiastic, loving-life girl I used to be somehow got misplaced. and the glass half empty girl that replaced her is no fun. but I think break will be good for me. I am working..which makes me happy. and I will be home–with my family who have become my best friends. and with angela. and with my church. and with everything that does make me happy!!
back to studying..only 8 days left!!!!!!!!!
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Family..
My daddy came to see me last night and took me out to dinner. I have to say it has been the highlight of my week. I love my family. That is one thing I am truely blessed with. God gave me an amazing family with whom I have amazing relationships. My dad is my hero–I respect him more then anyone else in my life. He is my first source of advice and I don’t know what I do without him. I do feel sorry for any guy that tries to date me..he is very protective of his little girl. But I wouldn’t have it any other way. And my mom is my best friend. Since coming to college, she is the one person that I know I can count on. I miss her so much..it is hard to be so far from home. I have realized how much I love home..and how much I miss it. I miss not being around. And even though sometimes they drive me crazy, at the end of the day they are still my family. And my little brother is my sunshine. No matter what happens-he is always there to try to cheer me up and tell me everything will be ok.
I am going home in two weeks and they aren’t going fast enough!! don’t get me wrong, I love college..but I miss home so much.
back to studying..
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Sing…
How can I keep from singing your praise
How can I ever say enough how amazing is your love
How can I keep from shouting your name
I know I am loved by the King
And it makes my heart want to singI was singing at church the other night, and one of my friends told me later that I have a beautiful voice. I laughed it off cuz singing is not my cup of tea. God didn’t bless me with a beautiful voice..or so I think. But I am sitting here thinking about how much I want to sing! But not just to sing, I want to sing to God. I want to thank Him for this week..for the people in my life..regardless of whether I like them or not–each of them shapes me into more the woman of God He wants me to be. I am tired of being unhappy and not having joy. I am letting trivial things rob me of the true joy I could be experiencing and I am done. No one is going to take it from me. I am done letting drama, and gossip, and stress, and school, and boys take it away. No more! Yes, way easier said then done:) in fact, I am sure it will be a daily struggle, but it is one I am ready to attact full force!! So watch out!:)
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Wow
I am utterly amazed at how often I can fail and yet everyday be reminded of how amazing God is. I am listening to a song and the chorus goes,
You and I were made to worship. You and I were called to love.
You and I are forgiven and free. You and I embrace surrender.
You and I choose to believe. You and I will see, we were meant to be.
And as I sit here in a computer lab on campus, I realize this is my calling in life. Not to be so busy I have no time to think. Not to get a 4.0. Not to be the best at everything. Not to be everything to everyone. No, I was made to worship. That is all I am supposed to do. In every aspect of my life, I am called to worship. So why do I so often lose sight of that..because I get caught up in this world. In the temporary pleasures of this life.I have to go meet with a professor and then I get to see my daddy!! That makes me more happy then anything!!!!!!!
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Get back up..
I am utterly amazed how many curveballs life throws at you. I know God never intended it to be easy, but I at least thought it would be manageable. And I know it is, but sometimes I feel like everytime I get my bearings, something else comes and knocks the wind right out of my sails. I am supposed to be studying business law..but my mind is so full of thoughts I can’t focus. I am hoping after this I will be able to concentrate on the Constitution. 🙂
So do you ever wonder why people are so thick-headed sometimes. I have realized that I think some people just don’t want to accept that what people are saying is exactly what they think. I am getting tired of my life. I am losing that excitement and joy and passion that I want. I was talking to someone today and they told me just not to care..but that is the last thing I want to do. I want to care..if you stop caring, you lose a reason for living. And you hurt everyone else around you in the process. I want to have passion in my life. I want to have joy and fulfillment. The problem is..I look for it in all the wrong places.
I started reading this book called The Search of Significance. Last night, I was reading it and it hit me..I am trying so hard to find my worth and significance in this world. But I keep looking for it in other people. Which is a sad pursuit. But as soon as I try to search for it in Christ, something comes that knocks me back a few steps. I see that person that I desperately want to mean something to. Or that person who I want to be friends with and yet seem to always fall short. Or do worse then I thought on something school related..etc. And I am once again hit with the obvious fact that I am searching for my significance in the wrong places.
So I am going to care..it is my nature. and I am going to be passionate about life. But I am going to find my passion and significance in the one who made me..not in that person who never really cared to begin with..or in the person who will fail me..but in the one Person who will NEVER leave nor forsake me! How amazing is that!
back to studying..I think I can focus now:)
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This impacted me..thought I would share
DON’T LEAVE IT ON THE DESK
There was a certain Professor of Religion named Dr. Christianson, astudious man who taught at a small college in the western United States. Dr. Christianson taught the required survey course in Christianity atthis particular institution. Every student was required to take this coursehis or her freshman year, regardless of his or her major. Although Dr. Christianson tried hard to communicate the essence ofthe gospel in his class, he found that most of his students looked upon thecourse as nothing but required drudgery. Despite his best efforts, moststudents refused to take Christianity seriously. This year, Dr. Christianson had a special student named Steve. Stevewas only a freshman, but was studying with the intent of going onto seminaryfor the ministr! y. Stev e was popular, he was well liked, and he was animposing physical specimen. He was now the starting center on the schoolfootball team, and was the best student in the professor’s class. One day, Dr. Christianson asked Steve to stay after class so he couldtalk with him. “How many push-ups can you do?” Steve said, “I do about 200 every night” “200? That’s pretty good, Steve,” Dr. Christianson said. “Do youthink you could do 300?” Steve replied, “I don’t know… I’ve never done 300 at a time.” “Do you think you could?” again asked Dr. Christianson. “Well, I can try,” said Steve. “Can you do 300 in sets of 10? I have a class project in mind and Ineed you to do about 300 push-ups in sets of ten for this to work. Can you doit? I need you to tell me you can do it,” said the professor. Steve said, “Well… I think I can…yeah, I can do it.” Dr. Christianson said, “Good. I need you to do this on Friday. Let meexplain what I have in mind.” Friday came and Steve got to class early and sat in the front of theroom. When class started, the professor pulled out a big box of donuts. No,these weren’t the normal kinds of donuts, they were the extra fancy BIG kind,with cream centers and frosting swirls. Everyone was pretty excited it wasFriday, the last class of the day, and they were going to get an early starton the weekend with a party in Dr. Christianson’s class. Dr. Christianson went to the first girl in the first row and asked, “Cynthia, do you want to have one of these donuts?” Cynthia said, “Yes.” Dr. Christianson then turned to Steve and asked, “Steve, would you doten push-ups ! so that Cynthia can have a donut?” “Sure.” Steve jumped down from his desk to do a quick ten. Then Steveagain sat in his desk. Dr. Christianson put a donut on Cynthia’s desk. Dr. Christianson then went to Joe, the next person, and asked, “Joe,do you want a donut?” Joe said, “Yes.” Dr. Christianson asked, “Steve would you do tenpush-ups so Joe can have a donut?” Steve did ten push-ups, Joe got a donut. And so it went, down thefirst aisle, Steve did ten push ups for every person before they got theirdonut. Walking down the second aisle, Dr. Christianson came to Scott. Scottwas on the basketball team, and in as good condition as Steve. He was verypopular and never lacking for female companionship. When the professor asked, “Scott do you want a donut?” Scott’s reply was, “Well, can I do my own push ups?” Dr. Christianson said, “No, Steve has to do them.” Then Scott said, “Well, I don’t w! ant one then.” Dr. Christianson shrugged and then turned to Steve and asked, “Steve,would you do ten push ups so Scott can have a donut he doesn’t want?” With perfect obedience Steve started to do ten push ups. Scott said, “Hey, I said I didn’t want one” Dr. Christianson said, “Look, this is my classroom, my class, mydesks, and these are my donuts. Just leave it on the desk if you don’t wantit.” And he put a donut on Scott’s desk. Now by this time, Steve had begun to slow down a little. He juststayed on the floor between sets because it took too much effort to begetting up and down. You could start to see a little perspiration coming outaround his brow. Dr. Christianson started down the third row. Now the students werebeginning to get a little angry. Dr. Christianson asked Jenny, “Jenny, do youwant a donut?” Sternly, Jenny said, “No.” Then Dr. Christianson asked Steve, “Steve, would you do ten morepush-ups so Jenny can have a donut that she doesn’t want?” Steve didten….Jenny got a donut. By now, a growing sense of uneasiness filled the room. The studentswere beginning to say “No” and there were a! ll thes e uneaten donuts on thedesks. Steve also had to really put forth a lot of extra effort to get thesepush ups done for each donut. There began to be a small pool of sweat on thefloor beneath his face, his arms and brow were beginning to get red becauseof the physical effort involved. Dr. Christianson asked Robert, who was the most vocal unbeliever inthe class, to watch Steve do each push up to make sure he did the full tenpush ups in a set because he couldn’t bear to watch all of Steve’s work forall of those uneaten donuts. He sent Robert over to where Steve was so Robertcould count the set and watch Steve closely. Dr. Christianson started down the fourth row. During his class,however, some students from other classes had wandered in and sat down on thesteps along the radiators that ran down the sides of the room. When theprofessor realized this, he did a quick count and saw that now there werestudents in the room. He started to worry if Steve would be able to make it. Dr. Christianson went on to the next person and the next and thenext. Near the end of that row, Steve was really having a rough time. Hewas taking a lot more time to complete each set. Steve asked Dr. Christianson, “Do I have to make my nose touch oneach one?” Dr. Christianson thought for a moment, “Well, they’re your push ups.You are in charge now. You can do them any way that you want.” And Dr. Christianson went on. A few moments later, Jason, a recent transfer student, came to theroom and was about to come in when all the students yelled in one voice, “NO,don’t come in Stay out!” Jason didn’t know what was going on. Steve picked up his head andsaid, “No, let him come.” Professor Christianson said, “You realize that if Jason comes in youwill have to do ten push ups for him?” Steve said, “Yes, let him come in. Give him a donut.” Dr. Christianson said, “Okay, Steve, I’ll let you get Jason’s out ofthe way right now. Jason, do you want a donut?” Jason, new to the room, hardly knew what was going on. “Yes,” hesaid, “give me a donut.” “Steve, will you do ten push-ups so that Jason can have a donut?”Steve did ten push ups very slowly and with great effort. Jason, bewildered,was handed a donut and sat down. Dr. Christian! son fin ished the fourth row, and then started onthose visitors seated by the heaters. Steve’s arms were now shaking with eachpush-up in a struggle to lift himself against the force of gravity. By thistime sweat was profusely dropping off of his face, there was no sound excepthis heavy breathing; there was not a dry eye in the room. The very last two students in the room were two young women, bothcheerleaders, and very popular. Dr. Christianson went to Linda, the second tolast, and asked, “Linda, do you want a doughnut?” Linda said, very sadly, “No, thank you.” Professor Christianson quietly asked, “Steve, would you do tenpush-ups so that Linda can have a donut she doesn’t want?” Grunting from theeffort, Steve did ten very slow push ups for Linda. Then Dr. Christianson turned to the last girl, Susan. “Susan, do youwant a donut?” Susan, with tears flowing down her face, began to cry. “Dr.Christianson, why can’t I help him?” Dr. Christianson, with tears of his own, said, “No, Steve has to doit alone, I have given him this task and he is in charge of seeing thateveryone has an opportunity for a donut whether they want it or not. When I decided to have a party this last day of class, I looked at mygrade book. Steve here is the only student with a perfect grade. Everyone elsehas failed a test, skipped class, or offered me inferior work. Steve told methat in football practice, when a player messes up he must do push-ups. I told Steve that none of you could come to my party unless he paidthe price by doing your push ups. He and I made a deal for your sakes.” “Steve, would you do ten push-ups so Susan can have a donut?” AsSteve very slowly finished his last pushup, with the understanding that hehad accomplished all that was required of him, having done 350 push ups, hisarms buckled beneath him and he fell to the floor. Dr. Christianson turned to the room and said. “And so it was, thatour Savior, Jesus Christ, on the cross, plead to the Father, ‘into thy handsI commend my spirit.’ With the understanding that He had done everything thatwas required of Him, He yielded up His life. And like some of those in thisroom, many of us leave the gift on the desk, uneaten.” Two students helped Steve up off the floor and to a seat, physicallyexhausted, but wearing a thin smile. “Well ! done, g ood and faithful servant,” said the professor,adding, “Not all sermons are preached in words.” Turning to his class, the professor said, “My wish is that you mightunderstand and fully comprehend all the riches of grace and mercy that havebeen given to you through the sacrifice of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ.He spared not only His Begotten Son, but gave Him up for us all, for thewhole Church, now and forever. Whether or not we choose to accept His gift to us, THE PRICE has beenpaid.” “Wouldn’t you be foolish and ungrateful to leave it lying on thedesk?” Share this with someone. It’s bound to touch their heart anddemonstrate salvation in a very special way.
