I decided I hate moving on. I know it is a necessary part of life-people must move on and so must I-but that still doesn’t mean I like it. Sometimes I question God’s doing in things-it’s as if, I have all this knowledge-I know God is good, His way is perfect..but then, BANG-someone decides it is time to move on. And of course, it is usually someone very near to my heart, someone I respect and look up too. But it is not my place to question God..and while I still don’t like it, I will have to put my trust in God and learn to rely on Him.

This was kinda sprung from reading Mr. Harmless’ blog. I was struck once again with the fact that he is leaving. But like he said, God is good. And has a plan for all of us.

God’s grace is amazing! Do you realize that? Lately, I have been overwhelmed by the presence of God’s grace in my life. I am amazed that I can get up every morning and trust that God has my life in His hands. Yes, I’ve shed my share of tears lately-but I am over and over reminded that God is enough. He has provided for me in some awesome ways. And although my dad is still jobless-I know this is part of His plan too. If for no other reason then to bring me to a place of utter reliance on God. Right now-I have no idea how things are going to turn out. I have no idea where the money I need is going to come from or where my life is going to go. All I am sure of is that my God is good. And He causes all things to work for the good of those who love Him. Is it easy? No Can I say I have been joyful in all things? No But I have been reminded over and over that my joy comes from God. As the psalmist said-“The Joy of the Lord is my Strength!” I heard a saying the other day; it went something like-God may not always be on time but He is never late. In my mind-I would have liked my dad to get a job the day after he lost it. But I guess God had a different idea in mind. And I am glad that He has-I truly am. I have come to a place of reliance on God and He has continued to humble me. I hate asking for help-knowing I’m on the receiving end of aid..but it is my pride that causes those feelings. Instead of being ashamed, I have learned to be thankful. I have learned that only God can provide. Even if He is providing through others-He is still providing. So I am praying and waiting-God will not fail. He promised to never leave nor forsake me. I am hiding in the shadow of His wings and trusting in Him as my rock.

I seem to have run out of the blogging juices-they just aren’t flowing. But yet, I am still inclined to write. So when I do think of something to say I will write..right now I have to eat or I would finish my thought..

This was the title for this weeks blog, and as I was thinking about it, one thought came into my head..will I ever make it to heaven? It honestly doesn’t seem like it’s coming fast enough. not that I want to die tomorrow..but I really can’t wait for heaven. there have been some things lately that in my mind seem like they went really wrong..I know God has a perfect plan, but I really can’t wait to get to heaven and never have a problem again. It’s going to be beyond words. To echo a song by Mercy Me, “I can only imagine..” Seeing Christ face to face is going to be so awesome. I really can’t wait until this life is over. But I know this life is our preparation-our training. God will give me the grace to handle it. and I have the greatest thing to look forward to. unlike soldiers training for war, i’m training for heaven! So will I ever make it? You bet I will! But until that day I’m going to put my focus on pleasing Christ and loving God!

ugh..I just wrote this long post and now it is gone. oh well, guess it wasn’t something that was supposed to be posted. (not that is was bad or anything..)

Just want to leave you with a verse I’ve been working on applying to my life. I struggle with gossip and I hate it when I know other people do it, so I figured I should probably be working on it myself.

Psalm 19:14, “Let the words of my mouth and the meditations of my heart be pleasing in your sight

Oh Lord, my rock and my redeemer.:

I hate gossip. I hate it more then a lot of things. But I was reading my bible last night, and I realized I am so often at fault for doing the very thing I hate. I cannot stand it when my “friends” talk about me..it is just not friendly. But how often am I talking about them? more then I care to admit-although not all of it is gossip. Matthew says to take the log out of your eye before you look at the spec in anothers. I can’t get mad or confront other people on gossiping when I myself am doing the same thing. Not that I will ever fully conquer this area but.. God revealed to me the sin in my heart and how hypocritical I was being. I memorized Psalm 19:14, which says, “Let the words of my mouth and the mediations of my heart be acceptable in your sight oh Lord, my rock and my redeemer.” If I hate gossip, then I need to stop gossiping. Not that I am then going to go condemn everyone else..they have to deal with their sin on their own. But I don’t want people to see me as a gossip. and I know God is not pleased with it. so I have committed to work on it. I probably won’t grasp ahold of it anytime soon, but the sooner I start working on it, the sooner I will see some victory in the area.

I’m out..

Amanda

Prom!

Well-I got the chance! For so long I have wanted to go to prom, and I finally got to go. Honestly, I can’t tell you what attracted me so much to it-perhaps the allure of it all or the fact that my school doesn’t have one. But regardless, it was one of those things I’ve wanted to do. And I had so much fun! :)Well, I’m not going to expand on anything else here. I don’t want to bore you all with the details!