So I haven’t written in forever! I miss writing..it was a nice escape..but I have been so busy. I added three jobs to my already full work load this semester! but God has been faithful and given me the strength I need. A lot has happened in my life since I last wrote. This whole college thing is a whole different world from anything I experienced in high school. and I am almost done with my first year of college. and I have a bunch of thought..but I am tired and writing a chem paper so I will write them later..just wanted to let any of my readers if they still read this know that I am not dead. I will be back soon!

and her name is Beth! Funny how sometimes you find friends when you were least expecting it and from places you were least expecting them to come. But after a three hour chat over coffee I realized God had this planned from the start. He knew I needed someone with whom I could share a common background and a common lifestyle. He also knew I needed someone who was a bit further ahead to give me hope that I can do this. I have to say watching and listening to her talk motivated a lot! And on the same note, gave a safe place I could say, “Yeah, this is hard.” So Beth if you ever read this–I am so THANKFUL for you. God sent you along right when I needed someone to which I could relate and could relate to me. Thank you for being open and your kind words! I will be praying for you throughout this semester!! Good luck with all you will be doing and thanks again for the chat over coffee!! It was great!

So I have been contemplating blog posts for several days now. I have sat down a few different times and attempted to write something, but the words don’t come and I usually end up erasing whatever I wrote and moving on to checking my e-mail and then find something else to do. I have so many thoughts in my head, but I am not sure which ones will come out in an understandable fashion. I decided over break I am very impatient. I am always looking on to the next point in life instead of enjoying the one I am in. Which is a very dangerous thing to do. So one of my goals for this next semester is to enjoy being a college student..to make friends, to not always be so uptight, to be happy where I am and not always wishing I was older or in a different place. I am going to fall back in love with my Savior and make Him top priority in my life. I spent so much time last semester up tight, missing home, and wishing I was done with college I missed out on a lot. But I am going to work on strengthening my relationships with my roommates and friends, my God, and my sorority sisters. I am going to be content being where I am because I know it is exactly where God wants me. And I am going to laugh more! 🙂

Now I have to finish cleaning my room before my mom kills me..I will write more later!!

Amanda

I am going back to work…I don’t want to..I have no desire to put on my hat and apron and stand behind a counter for four hours smiling and taking people’s orders. I don’t know why I was so excited about going back..but I am dragging my feet utterly disgusted that I have to go. I don’t know why I hate to work so much. But I think it is more the people there..granted, I love my bosses..but I stand around for hours and hour not talking to anyone but the customers that come and go every few minutes..there is no communication between my co-workers and I. And for me..that is really really hard. I can’t hardly go two minutes without talking..even if it is to myself:) And now I am forced to go for hours. Needless to say, it is a definate struggle to make myself get in the car and drive to work.

But I will do..I will buckle down and go and attempt to make the best of it. Who knows maybe one of my few friends at work will be there. or maybe I will make a new friend. or maybe I will just some time to ponder the meaning of life:) hee hee. I have had plently of time to do that lately. And you know, I have come to one conclusion–I am a long way from where I would like to be and getting there is not going to be the easiest road. But I know that everyday I am falling more and more in love with my Savior and less and less in love with this world. As I have re-opened my Bible and re-connected with my high school friends, I have realized that there is something to be said for My Savior. He is quickly regaining His place as Lord and love of my life. Is it easy? no…but is it best..YOU BET!! so I am off to work and off to a new adventure! Life only comes around once and who knows how long I have to make an impact for Christ!

More later..

Amanda

I miss writing on this..for so long I was so scared of who read this that I stopped writing my thoughts down..but I am going back..I know I’m a dork:)

I think music sometimes is the best way to express life and I am not ready to spill all my thoughts just yet..but I love this song…take a moment to ponder it..:) I will write more later..when I feel like bearing the pages of my life.

Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find
Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your innovations
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten