Procrastination. It is one thing I am good at. Take right now for instance. My lovely teachers felt compelled to assign me an abnormal amount of homework over my break, but yet am I working on any of it? No..I am writing in my blog. (But as soon as I finish, I am going to work on some of it..)

Anyways..on to the point of this blog as soon as I can remember what it was. Ok..nevermind, I don’t really have anything to write about. 🙂

Just some random thoughts..

Amanda

Yep..that’s right! I love Napoleon Dynamite! And I found this website! It’s funny!

Just a thought..

Amanda

sometimes I need to re-read what I write..

Just a thought..

Amanda

So..I know I’ve been posting a lot lately, but I haven’t had much else to do. It’ll make up for all the times I’m busy. Plus, I have had a lot on my mind which always increases my number of posts. So anyways..I’m so confused about life. I don’t really know what to think..I have so many questions. The problem is I can’t ask any of them. Well, I can..and I will eventually. But right now, I’m waiting on people to just randomly answer them..however, I think that is a futile pursuit. And honestly, I think it all comes down to patience. I want to know now what’s going on..and I think I need to work on just sitting back and waiting. Although it wouldn’t kill the people in my life to be clear on things. I take things too personal and read way too much into things..I know that..but some people aren’t giving me many other options. so I guess I will just keep waiting..maybe they will answer my questions or maybe the opportuinity will arise for me to ask them my questions..or maybe things will just fall into place..who knows..I just hate not knowing..but perhaps this is a good thing and a lesson I need to learn..

Just a thought..

Amanda

Yes..more then anything, I hate not having anything to do. This has plagued me since I was young. I believe that is why I began talking to myself. (but that is a different story) I will do anything to avoid being bored. But Sunday(today) rolled around and I had nothing to do. I finished all my homework Saturday when I was bored and by 1:00 Sunday had finished everything that needed done for this week. So I have sat around for 6 hours. I made cookies, but I am a bad cookie maker and had a recipie that was wrong so they taste awful. 🙁 I cleaned my room yesterday so that didn’t need done. I didn’t sleep last night, but am not tired and would like to be able to sleep tonight so I decided against taking a nap. Now I am blogging and rambling on about nothing. It is really not solving my problem and if anyone is still reading I give you mucho brownie points..I would make you some for real, but alas I cannot bake or cook to save my life. Three years of home ect. didn’t do me much good. This is one time when I must say, I would have liked to have some homework..I know you are all gasping in amazement that I would actually want homework. But it will happen that I sat around Sunday with nothing to do, and Tuesday or Thursday night when I have a million other things to do I will be swamped with homework..how it works out that way I have no idea..but anyways, I’m done rambling. I am going to finish this blog, put my pj’s on and watch football. I’m not a huge fan of either teams playing..but I think I will root for the Steeler’s..I might be disowned if I don’t:) 😉

Just some random thoughts..

Amanda

Guys. Good grades. Friends. Cheerleading. Being liked.

That’s what I wanted. That’s what I was aiming for. I was consumed by “I” and “me”. I had built up so much bitterness, pride, and anger-I couldn’t do anything without thinking about how this would help me or how this would hurt someone who hurt me. It was an awful way to live. I know I hurt people I didn’t mean to. I know I said and did things I shouldn’t have. And I know more then anything, that it saddened God. Then last night, I was talking with a friend and I realized how much I needed to get my life in order. This morning I woke up and read my bible for the first time in awhile. I opened to Hebrews chapter 11. It is probably my favorite chapter of the bible. As I read through all the accounts of men and women who had great faith I realized I was lacking majorly. I didn’t even have enough faith to trust God with my college decisions, my relationships, my time-I wanted full control because I figured I knew it all. I could do it on my own. But God quickly showed me I can’t do it. I will simply fail miserably every time I try to take a step without God. So I gave it all up. I decided I was giving everything over to God. I don’t want control of it anymore. I can’t do it on my own, and it’s time I stop trying. It was like a huge burden was lifted. I haven’t been this at peace in a long time. So God’s gonna have to make it real clear the steps He wants me to take cuz I’m not taking another one on my own. I want to have faith that moves mountains. I want to have faith that says, “God is good” even in the midst of trials. And I challenge you-let God have 100% control of your life. It’ll be the best decision you ever make.

Just a thought..

Amanda

Spirit week 2005..The seniors lost..almost an unheard of thing in our school..but anyways..just wanted to say congrats to the Juniors and to my seniors..I love you guys so much!!! Even though we didn’t win, I wouldn’t trade you guys for the world!! Graduation is almost here!:)

Just a thought..

Amanda

Have you ever looked back and wondered why in the world you ever did that? I have been doing that a lot lately..perhaps it’s because it’s nearing the end of my senior year or perhaps because I learned a little about the importance of things..but I have realized my dream to live highschool with no regrets turned out to be anything but that. Now, granted..I made a lot of right choices and have some memories I will keep forever. But I also have pain and hurt that will probably never go away. There are certain feelings that no matter how far removed you become, never go away. I wish I had listened to those people who tried to tell me this would happen. But I thought I knew it all..I thought if I made the right decisions, it would work. Ha..now I’m left with a great deal of problems I could have avoided. But God is the ultimate healer and forgiver. When He looks at me, He sees a clean slate. He sees me pure and clean. How amazing is that! yeah..my friends remember all the mistakes I’ve made, and they will at times rub salt into my wounds..but Christ-He’s the one the comes and heals it completely. He says, “I Love You” and no one can change that. He takes my regrets and turns them into victories. I am so thankful that I serve a God like that..I wouldn’t trade it for anything. And I hope that you realize how amazing the God is that we serve. Whatevr is on your plate..He loves you and He will never leave you..not ever.

Just a thought..

Amanda

Here’s a great quote from him..

13 men turned the world upside down, surely 80 students can change 500

(so paraphrased by me:) )