This is one of those times I wish would never end and yet am so excited about the end. Two months of highschool left-and my emotions could not be more haywire. On the one hand, I’m totally siked about graduating-moving on, becoming a big college freshman:) (ok..a little puny freshman) but on the other, I am going to miss seeing my friends everyday, I’m gonna miss being around them, laughing with them, crying with them. See, in the fall I will be packing up and heading 4 hours south to attend college. No more two second drives to Angela’s to borrow a shirt..man, I am going to miss them..and then there’s this whole business of Adam..what am I ever going to do about him! But right now, I am just going to make memories and enjoy the time I have left..and while my emotions continue to go haywire, I am so thankful for my friends who keep my at least partially sane:) love ya all….

Just some thoughts..
Amanda

Have you ever wondered what the future will hold? I suppose if you are a living, breathing human at some point you have pondered what the rest of your life held. Perhaps because graduation and college are getting closer, or because of Adam, or simply the thought of getting older-I have been thinking about it a lot lately. Granted, I am very much enjoying the present-I can’t believe in a few short months I will be 4 hours away from all my dear beloved friends. They are the greatest–I can’t begin to talk of how much I love them. I will miss them something terrible..but I know in each life, we must move forward–not forgetting the past, but making memories in the present. Still, I do wish God would impart some of His knowledge of my future. And then I realize that if God had told me 5 years ago what I would be doing now, I probably would have laughed in His face. So I think he withholds us the information for good reasons..it has taught much more about the idea of trusting in God. I have struggled with that my whole life, but lately, I have seen how faithful God is and how much He is deserving of my full trust. See, I don’t know how my future is gonna turn out..but that’s ok. God knows, and if I will do my part-then He will do His. He is the creator of everything, loving and faithful and the almighty God–what more could I ask for! Yet He gave me more then I ever deserve..and I know my future is gonna be awesome because I have God designing it!!!!!

Proverbs 3:5-6..

OOOO..SMOKIN’ HOT BASKETBALL CHAMPS! (stole this from wilbo..) 

So..I’m not middle-aged..but at the beginning of my senior year I decided I wanted to try something new.. now for those of you who know me, you know that I have done that many times so far in my short life of 18 years. (but someday I will devote a post to that..) So in August, I signed up for tumbling classes. I found a place that offered them for older people..but I was still the oldest person by far. While all the other junior high and freshman girls were talking about their latest boyfriend or new make-up..I was talking about college.. yeah, it was a little weird. But nevertheless I stuck with it. My goal-to do a backhandspring. More for me then for cheerleading. Well..I got it! Finally..I did it by myself. After a bit of coaching from my instructor and him finally convincing me that he wasn’t doing anything..I did one. No, it wasn’t pretty..and neither were the 10 more I attempted after that..but I did it. I accomplished my goal..and I was elated. I haven’t felt that much satisfaction in a long time. 8 months of an hour a week practicing-with one goal in mind. I was on cloud 9! I reached my goal..of course, now I don’t want to stop..I want to make them perfect..but that will come in time. For right now, I’m satisfied that I can do it!

another annotation..

Please allow me to be honest for a moment..

I read an article online about some girl who just got engaged to her highschool sweetheart and it put me in a sentimental mood..well, ok-maybe I was already in one, but still..I have always wanted to marry my highschool sweetheart. I have always been fascinated by stories of people who met in highschool and married later on in life. But alas..highschool is almost over and I don’t have a sweetheart-in fact, I don’t even have any options. I was talking to a friend the other night about the whole boyfriend/girlfriend thing..and I decided that while I don’t need a boyfriend, it doesn’t change the desire to want one. Esp. since my two best friends have boyfriends that I can totally see both of them marrying..Not that I am complaining..I am totally convinced God has the right guy out there and that he is going to be more then I could ever dream of..but there is still that part of me that hasn’t died yet. Still that part of me that refuses to be content in the current place I am. I would like to be like Paul, and say, “I have learned to be content in every circumstance.” But as my senior year dwindles down, I am learning to be content and learning to enjoy the moment-not spend it waiting for the next one. And I am learning to be thankful for the place God has me..It hasn’t always been easy and God has used some tough situations to get me to this place..but every situation God has used to mold me into His son..and someday..I will find my prince charming..and he will sweep my off my feet and ride me off into the sunset..

Just a thought..
Amanda