Tweet The other night we were sitting on the couch and it happened… there was an undeniable kick.  In fact, I could actually see my stomach move.  I thought I had felt the baby move in the few days prior, but this time there was no other way to explain it. The  baby was kicking me.  I may or may not have cried.   Four months ago, if you had told me feeling the tiny kick of the little baby inside of me would move me tears, I would have laughed in your face. I am not typically super sentimental and I had no intentions of becoming a mom right…

Tweet Some of my fondest memories as a child are from Christmas. Specifically the weekend we would bundle up, load up, and head out to the nearest Christmas tree farm to pick out our very own Christmas tree.  We would walk up and down the rows to find the most perfect one and then my dad would spend a lot of time making sure it was trimmed and ready for us to decorate with ornaments. Finally, I always got to set up the Nativity scene and we would watch How the Grinch Stole Christmas.  (ok, we probably didn’t do that all in one day… but those are my memories) About…

Tweet Tonight I told my husband I needed to become less likable and less dependable.  I was dead serious.   He responded, “You just need to learn to say no.”   Thing is, I had not even told him the reason for my desire to be disliked. He already knew.  I knew too.  But as a person who has felt left out and less than most of her life, saying no when asked to do something is a really, really hard thing for me.  I feel as though if I say no, people will forget about me, they will move on, and I will be left unnoticed and alone.  …

Tweet Saturday morning I spent a long time with a dear friend dreaming and planning for next steps surrounding a big vision.  As we put things down on paper and we starting talking about connections, people, resources, details, and trips, it was a bit overwhelming.  I knew when I stepped into this path, it would not be easy. I perhaps failed to account for how big this was and how God would show up and bring exactly who I need across my path.  As I looked at our list of people, resources, and ideas, I felt very small.  The thought crept into my mind.. why me?   I  attempted to…

Tweet In my Bible study, we have been reading Restless by Jennie Allen. I HIGHLY recommend the book.  Right now, we are walking through different areas of our lives looking for the threads tying them all together.  I know some of you are big picture type of people who can connect the dots between each experience and God’s plan, but I am a little dense.  I often can’t see the forest for the trees.  I get lost in the details and the immediate, and in the process, I forget about the eternal.   This book has been life changing in many ways, but the idea of looking at the moments…