so I decided life is unfair…

Why in the world do people think that a 19 year old has enough wisdom to decide what they would be happy doing for the rest of their life? like seriously..I mean, I know you have those people with passions..things they have always wanted to do and they go to college and do it..and are happy. I have never been one of those people. I have never in my life been satisfied with something. Why I thought things would change when I came to college I don’t know. but here I am, a year into college with absolutely no idea what I want to do with my life. I mean, I know..I have so many dreams, passions, and desires..but how to put them all into a major and a decision seems impossible. and how to decide between the practical and the dream. do you go for what you know is safe or do you chase after a dream that might never happen? and do you do what your parents want or what you want–even though they have lots more knowledge then you do. And do you find a reason for doing it..or do you just do it and grit your teeth and hope things turn out ok on the other side? and what about what everyone says..do you listen to their advice or their experiences? it’s so confusing..I wish God would just whisper in my ears what I was supposed to do with my life. that would def. simplify things. He could throw in who I am gonna marry too:) but anyways..I’m just frustrated and overwhelmed and ready to be home..I miss my family..and I’m tired of living out of a suitcase.

..amanda