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Stuck on my knees..
so..this was perhaps the hardest week of my college career thus far. On top of exams, which were no walk in the park-I was faced hard on with the reality of cause and effect. You know..every choice has a consequence..whether good or bad. And it brought me to a place of complete brokenness before God..I was literally stuck on my knees. I realized that I had once again tried to take things into my own hands and try my own way to accomplish my goals and dreams and had fallen drastically short. In fact, I think I might have done exactly the opposite of what I wanted to do. And when I was questioning why I was even here, I realized something. Had I not gotten to that point, I don’t know where I would be. I think I would have ended up very very far from where God wants me. I think I would have given up long ago. But God knew I would be here. He knew this would come at what I thought was the worst possible time. He knew what it would take to break me. And break me He did. I realized once and for all that I really can’t do this on my own. And I can’t rely on other people to help me along. I have to make the decision and stick to it. I have to draw on strength from God and rely on His wisdom. And while I wish it wouldn’t have taken me so long to realize this, I can truely say I am going to make some drastic changes for the better and get this whole trusting God thing under control..
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just some stuff..
I am putting off my homework..I really need to go do that..but I haven’t written in awhile and I thought I would update this..College has really got me thinking about some stuff..mainly how I treat other people..That saying, “Actions speak louder then words” is so true. I have learned that the best testimony I can have is to love others. Yeah, I may not agree witht their decisions or lifestyle choices, but that doesn’t mean I am allowed to disreguard them. I am under charge from God to love those around me.. even those that are harder to love. And I will say, I miss my friends terribly from back home, but my mission field is where I am and I am ready to go back. I miss my roommates, my friends, my sorority, and my life I have created down there. I miss being right down the hall from my buds..and being able to go over anytime day or night. I realize that even in my loneliness, I have created relationships and built friendships and found a place I can really put into practice all that I have learned. Jesus says in the Bible, “The fields are white for the harvest” and I have seen how very true this is! No, it’s not easy, but it is so rewarding and I truly believe that going away from home was the best thing I could have ever done. I have met some amazing people and learned a lot about how to live with others, how to deal with conflicts, how to sleep with the lights on, and a ton of other things that I could list forever. And I can hardly believe it’s Thanksgiving and soon my first semester of college will be over..crazy! (and a disclaimer..I am still single:) so for all my Faith friends…told you I could do it!..not that I am complaining, because I am happy with life!) hee hee…
That’s about all..I am going to go get some homework done! Talk to you all later!
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Zeta Kappa 225
Yes..that’s right–I am now a 100% official member of Gamma Phi Beta. I can’t believe how awesome this is!!! We had intiation last night and it was good. So now, NO MORE SECRETS! I can’t wait!! I love my new sisters and I can’t wait to see what happens over the next four years!
Amanda:)
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On a different note..
Ever wonder why God brings some people into your life for a short time? Why does He allow us to meet the most awesome people and then uproot them from our lives? Perhaps it is for their good, and perhaps it is for our good..or, and more likely..it is for both. I joined a sorority this year..something I never thought I would do and God has brought so many awesome people and opportunities into my life. One of those people was an amazing girl named Nicole. I am honestly not sure what I would have done without her these last few months. And I am going to miss her terribly..but you know what, I am learning slowly that you can’t live life dwelling on the leaving. You have to focus on the time you have together, whether it is one day, one month, one year, or the rest of your life. And when the time comes, you must part ways for a time, you have to take that in stride and know that you will meet again another time and another place. See, when God gave me Nicole, He gave me a sister and a friend who would be there for me to listen to me cry and laugh and just be me. He gave me someone I found a common bond with..someone who helped me far more then she will ever know. And for the short time I have known her, I have been blessed and encouraged in so many ways. So will I miss her..yes terribly! But will I look forward to seeing her again..more then anything! and for now, I will enjoy the time I have left!
So Nicole, I love you like crazy! I am so glad you are my sister and friend! and I can’t wait to see what happens with your life:) Thanks for all your encouragement and motivation to keep going! I love you!
Amanda
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Amazing!
My friend Christine from back home had 4 little babies!! She was pregnant with five, but lost one, but the rest are doing great! you can check out more here! How awesome is that!! God is amazing!!
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A bright spot in a gloomy week..
I had a crazy busy week..I hardly had time to talk to my parents, much less anyone else. I spent 14 hours studying and worked and did sorority stuff and managed to sleep a little in there too. Needless to say, it was a stressful week that sadly, isn’t going to get any less stressful until Thanksgiving break. But one of my best friends from back home called last night and told me that her and our friend Angela are coming to see me! Now you must understand..these two girls are my lifeline..(well, maybe it isn’t quite that bad..but it’s close) I love them with everything in me and they know more about me then anyone in the world. And I have missed them so much..they are both back home and being down here without them has proved to be quite the challenge. But they are coming!!! Which I must say made my week:) They are the greatest!! So watch out USI…it’s a little scary when we all get together:) hee hee…
Ang and Sarah—I LOVE YOU BOTH! CAN’T WAIT TO SEE YOU!!
Amanda
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Weather!
It is amazing outside! I just want you all to know! I am sitting outside typing on my computer and could def. get used to this! So this was a crazy busy week..but I got through my lab practical..it actually wasn’t that bad! And I get to sleep in tomorrow and I get a home-cooked meal tomorrow night which I am so excited about!! Let’s see…I can’t think of much else..I will write more later when I feel inspired:) hee hee..
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another time, another place
Do you ever wish you were in another time or another place? Do you ever wonder we never seem content where we are? Well, maybe you are a lot different then me, but it seems like I am always looking forward to the next thing instead of enjoying the moment. First, I was excited about college, now I want to be working and married, who knows what will be next. 🙂 ok..so maybe it’s not quite that bad. I must admit I love college! I love meeting new people, I love staying up till 3 in the morning and no one caring, I love studying my brains out for a class that most people fail, (well, ok I don’t love that:) ) and I love being on my own. But sometimes, I still struggle with being content. I wonder why God wanted me to come four hours from home all alone. I wonder why the one person I would love to spend every day with is a plane ride away. I wonder why I seem to have no problem finding someone who would drink me, but when I try to find someone to study the Bible with I am instantly alone. And then I realize something. I am blessed beyond reason, I have been given everything I need, I am exactly where God wants me-and whether it is hard or easy, it is best! I am exactly in the middle of God’s plan for my life and that is the best and only place to be. I would be miserable anywhere else. So for the time being, I am going to work on being content here and now and let God deal with the rest of my life. Who knows what will happen, but I can’t wait for the adventure!
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in all things there is God…
My hardest class this semester has by far been Biology 121: Anatomy and Physiology. A pre-req. for nursing, I had to take it and I have to get a good grade. But while I have spent many hours and will spend many more hours pouring away over notes and labs, one thing has stuck out to me over and over. In all things is God. Or in more proper English-God is in everything and is everything. The Bible says even creation will tell of His glory. And as I sit in class and listen to my professor talk about all the small, tiny details of our anatomy I can’t help but wonder how someone can deny the existence of God. To think that we evolved from nothing or even from a single cell seems impossible..and I mean, I guess I kinda admire their faith, but honestly…how often have you seen something come from nothing? Every single aspect was created for a specific purpose, and if anything is astray then you aren’t normal..how crazy is that? if one gene, one nerve impulse, one tiny thing is wrong then you get a negative result..and when everything works perfectly, we can see, smell, remember, and communicate and do a million of other things that would take me a year to document on here…personally, that is an amazing and hard-to-grasp thought. And it makes me so thankful for my faith and my God and that I have the ability to type out my thoughts, to study for a huge test, to remember what goes where…none of that would be possible without a creator. Just try it…try to find something that is that did not have a creator. I bet you can’t…and if you think you can, then can you logically explain where it came from..did it just randomly appear? well, next time I find a magnificent painting that just randomly appeared I’ll let you know..:) but anyways..in everything is God..
just a thought..
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And you thought cheerleading wasn’t a sport..
Drills and Spills
As cheerleaders fly higher, injury rates rise and some falls are crippling, even fatal. New rules could help.By Arian Campo-Flores
Newsweek
It was a dream come true for Ashley Burns when the lithe 14-year-old with the blue-ribboned ponytail and squeaky voice learned in July that she’d landed a cherished spot on the varsity cheerleading squad at Medford Vocational-Technical High School in Massachusetts. To celebrate, she and a friend got pedicures and tooled around town in a convertible blasting their favorite tunes. One week after joining the team, Burns was at practice, preparing to perform a stunt called a “double down.” Held aloft by four cheerleaders gripping one of her feet, she was thrust into the air. But instead of completing two twists and landing on her back in her teammates’ arms, she landed hard on her stomach, rupturing her spleen. An hour later, she was pronounced dead. Her family was left with the scant consolation expressed by a former teammate on a Web memorial: “You left us doing something you and I both love.”
Supremely athletic and intensely competitive, modern cheerleading is far more dangerous than it was in the days of pom-poms and megaphones. A year-round pursuit whose popularity has grown thanks to an influx of gymnasts seeking greater exposure, it has evolved so quickly that the regulatory bodies in charge of preventing sports injuries have struggled to keep up. The numbers tell the tale: emergency-room visits for cheerleading injuries—often fractures, dislocations and sprains—jumped from 15,700 in 1994 to 28,400 in 2004, according to the Consumer Product Safety Commission. Though much of that increase results from the growing number of cheerleaders nationwide—now estimated at about 1.5 million—there’s little doubt that riskier stunts have contributed as well. Even more troubling, catastrophic injuries—those involving severe skull or spinal damage—are also on the rise, according to the National Center for Catastrophic Sport Injury Research (NCCSI). Of the 101 such injuries among female high-school and college athletes between 1983 and 2004, the center reports, 55 percent resulted from cheerleading.
“Fliers” like Burns, who are flung into the air as they perform acrobatic moves, face the greatest risk. Injury rates are “exponentially higher for a flier than for a footballer,” says NCCSI’s Robert Cantu. Compounding the risks of injury, says Cantu, some inexperienced coaches allow—or encourage—cheerleaders to perform moves beyond their skill.
Some parents are lobbying for greater regulation. Pete Buczek—whose daughter Ashlee fractured her skull in a 2003 cheerleading injury (she has since recovered)—was able to get a law passed in Indiana this year that calls for the state to come up with new safety rules. But Susan Loomis, spirit-rules director for the National Federation of State High School Associations, says a rule book has been in place since 1987 and is updated annually. The problem, she says, is that the federation can’t force states to abide by those rules. Though about 20 states classify cheerleading as a sport—triggering strict requirements such as access to an athletic trainer—other states treat it as a more loosely governed “activity.” “No one can really agree on what we are or who we are,” Loomis says.
Confusion also prevails in the all-star cheerleading world. Composed of cheerleaders who perform solely at private competitions and have no connection to a school, all-star squads are unregulated. The result, until recently: a byzantine mess as different competitions enforced different rules and some permitted riskier moves, says Jim Chadwick of the U.S. All Star Federation. To create order, the all-star world united under USASF’s umbrella in March and established a uniform set of rules and competition levels.
College cheerleading is enduring its own safety crackdown. Faced with the prospect that cheerleaders could lose insurance coverage and end up grounded—nearly one quarter of its $12 million in catastrophic claims costs since 1998 were the result of cheerleading injuries—the NCAA announced a new requirement this summer: by August 2006, all cheerleading squads must be supervised by a safety-certified coach or adviser. College cheerleaders also face new limitations on moves.
The newly restrictive regime has roiled places like Louisville Cheer & Dance Co., the training gym for a stellar lineup of teams, from pee-wee all-stars to the University of Louisville squad. Among the college kids, disgruntlement reigns. “You work your whole cheer career to get elite skills,” says Ries Brooks, a freshman who turned down Harvard to join the Louisville team. “Then they change the rules.” Katie Wigginton, a high-school senior, has a more sanguine view of the all-star reforms. “If I’m competing, I want to be safe,” she says. Once, training as a flier, she landed on her head, spraining her neck. “That was enough to keep me on the ground,” she says. Tragically, Ashley Burns never got a second chance.
With Ben Whitford and Jessica Silver-Greenberg
© 2005 Newsweek, Inc.
