Saturday morning I spent a long time with a dear friend dreaming and planning for next steps surrounding a big vision. As we put things down on paper and we starting talking about connections, people, resources, details, and trips, it was a bit overwhelming. I knew when I stepped into this path, it would not be easy. I perhaps failed to account for how big this was and how God would show up and bring exactly who I need across my path. As I looked at our list of people, resources, and ideas, I felt very small. The thought crept into my mind.. why me?
I attempted to shrug it off and move on with my day. Sunday was our day to serve at church and I went through the morning in a routine. Show up early, make sure everything is running smoothly, make sure everyone is on time.. some Sundays it is easy to get lost in serving and fail to enter into worship. I had heard the worship songs four times by the last service, but I decided as everything had gone smoothly up to then, I would take some time to truly worship. All of a sudden, the bridge to Oceans by Hillsong hit me like a freight train.
Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders
Let me walk upon the waters
Wherever You would call me
Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander
And my faith will be made stronger
In the presence of my Savior
In that moment, I wanted to cry, laugh, and jump for joy. As I thought back to our list the day before, to the plans, the dreams, the hopes, the fears, I realized the question is not “why me?“. The question is “How much will I trust God?” Will I refuse to listen to the fears and gremlins whispering in my ears and pursue a Savior whose presence makes me stronger? Will I trust without exception? Thus as I move forward, this is my prayer… Maybe it needs to be yours today as well.
Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders
Let me walk upon the waters
Wherever You would call me
Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander
And my faith will be made stronger
In the presence of my Savior
