I have a dream. A really big dream. One of those dreams most people would laugh off as “impossible.” Sometimes when I think about it I feel like a kid again-you know, back when you thought anything was possible. I forget sometimes I am an adult and am supposed to have practical, pay-the-bills type of dreams. I wonder if the dream is even possible or if I will ever find people willing to invest in the vision. I wonder often why God choose this issue to break my heart. Why this burden to bear?
Lately though, I have decided to throw caution to the wind and start pursuing my dream. I have not quit my job yet mostly because I do still have bills to pay, but in every moment I can between work, grad school, and the million other things I do, I have been plotting, prodding, researching, and planning. I have been talking, emailing, reading, and making lists. No one ever accomplished a dream by waking up one day and waving a magic wand and so instead of waiting for some magical moment in the future when all the stars align, I am taking steps now. Baby steps. Small steps.
And I have hit roadblocks already. Emails that never get a response. Information that I cannot seem to find. Friends that have better things to do than listen to me ramble. But the thing is, for the first time in a long time, I am refusing to let those things discourage me. Precious lives are at stake. Day in and day out, while we go on with our daily lives, an evil lurks that is darker and sicker than any of us care to imagine. I refuse to sit by any longer and not do something. Even if that something is laying plans, praying hard, and asking until I get an answer.
Curious yet?
I hope so because in the days and weeks that follow I plan on slowly sharing the journey with you. Right now, the dream is still tucked inside the place in my heart few people get to see. Partly because I am not sure now is the right time and partly because rejection is still one of my biggest fears. But there is post after post composed with details and dreams. I have a name. I have the passion. And I am fully aware that it will take lots of hard work, long days, longer nights, disappointments, and discouragement. But then again, who ever said changing the world was easy? And I honestly think with a whole lot of prayer and a whole lot of relying on God, the impossible may become possible.
Stay tuned..life could get very exciting!
