so..this was perhaps the hardest week of my college career thus far. On top of exams, which were no walk in the park-I was faced hard on with the reality of cause and effect. You know..every choice has a consequence..whether good or bad. And it brought me to a place of complete brokenness before God..I was literally stuck on my knees. I realized that I had once again tried to take things into my own hands and try my own way to accomplish my goals and dreams and had fallen drastically short. In fact, I think I might have done exactly the opposite of what I wanted to do. And when I was questioning why I was even here, I realized something. Had I not gotten to that point, I don’t know where I would be. I think I would have ended up very very far from where God wants me. I think I would have given up long ago. But God knew I would be here. He knew this would come at what I thought was the worst possible time. He knew what it would take to break me. And break me He did. I realized once and for all that I really can’t do this on my own. And I can’t rely on other people to help me along. I have to make the decision and stick to it. I have to draw on strength from God and rely on His wisdom. And while I wish it wouldn’t have taken me so long to realize this, I can truely say I am going to make some drastic changes for the better and get this whole trusting God thing under control..
