God

Ever since I can remember, I believed in God. But until recently, I think part of me believed in God because that was what I was taught and what was expected. Then I packed up my life and moved four hours from home to attend a state college in a town where I knew exactly 4 people. I can honestly say, nothing could have prepared me for this. I have learned a lot over the past few years, but everyday having my faith tried and my belief in a God questioned is not something I was prepared to deal with. Add being homesick to that and what I was left with was one thing–God. Last night was one of those nights that was really bad. Most people go home on the weekend which leaves me with not much to do. And I was really missing home so I did something ashamedly I haven’t done in awhile…I got out my Bible and started reading. And I came across this verse, Psalm 84:10 which says, “Better is one day in your courts than thousands elsewhere, I would rather stand at the threshold of the house of my God Than dwell i the tents of the wicked.” As soon as I read it, I realized that being here was better then being anywhere else because this is where God wants me. Although I think the bigger thing that stuck out me was the fact that Psalmist really believed that it was better to be with God than anywhere else. And I was lacking in that thought. So I spent some time talking to God and all of a sudden realized all my tears were just me feeling sorry for myself. I made the decision to come, I knew it was where God wanted me, and while it’s def. one of the hardest things I have done, I know God has a plan and ultimately it will prove far more rewarding then anything I could have dreamed up.

Just a thought..
Amanda