So Sorry

I am so sorry I haven’t posted anything serious in so long–so much has happened this summer and I haven’t felt like blogging about any of it. But I am sitting here delaying a much needed shower so I can blog some thoughts. (I ran through the pouring rain last night and was dripping wet by the time I got home so my hair is a mess:) )

I am off to college on Wednesday! I am so excited!! I honestly can’t wait to get away from here. Not that I am not going to miss my friends because I am..terribly. But I am looking forward to a fresh start and new adventures. I do wish God would be a bit more clear about the direction He wants my life to go in though. I am trying very hard to trust Him and listen to my parents, but it’s tough. They want me to be a nurse and that is a noble choice for a career. But I job shadowed one type of nurse and was bored out of my mind. Granted, there are many more things I could do, but I don’t know. I spent 4 hours last night watching that show 24–awesome–but I loved trying to figure out what was going on. I really would like to do something that requires some sort of deductive reasoning. Which is odd I know..and then part of me just hates when people tell me what to do. My mom at one point told me I couldn’t switch majors which put me into the rethinking my life mode. She has since changed her mind and said I could but still.

And then there’s the whole future question—who will I marry? That was has perplexed me a lot this summer. I got the marriage bug after looking for engagement rings for three hours:) And now I just want to get married. But life got complicated and I dumped my boyfriend and met some other people and now I just don’t know. I think I need to get away from here for awhile and give my thoughts some time to relax and trust God.

Cuz honestly-that’s what everything comes down to. What to major in, boyfriends, making friends at college–all of it comes down to simply giving God everything and trusting that He has such an amazing plan for my life, I can’t even begin to dream of it. II Peter 1:3 says, “His divine power has given us everything we need for life and Godliness through our knowledge of Him who called us by his own glory and goodness.” How awesome is that! I have everything I need simply through my knowledge of God. Cool thought.