For once in my life I think I have figured out what God’s will is for me..I truly believe He wants me at USI. He’s opened so many doors, and provided so many opportunities as well as given me a peace about I haven’t know in a long time..so why am I still wondering and dreading it? Why am I not jumping up and down for joy and praising God for His goodness and faithfulness? Why am I scared to call my roommate? Why do I dread the thought of making new friends and leaving my current ones?
Because I am scared and selfish. I don’t want to make new friends, I don’t want to leave my bubble, I don’t want to think about life without Adam. But is that what God wants-no!! I know He has great and amazing plans in store for me if I will let Him have total control of my life. Even if that means going to Evansville. Perhaps my friends here will forget me and perhaps I will be homesick and have trouble making friends or fitting in–but in light of eternity does any of that matter? I have to be honest and say no–what matters is my minstry and where I can be most effective..and for me that is Evansville. I will keep in touch with my friends..and I will make new ones. And if Adam and I are meant to be then 4 hours won’t be a big deal. God works all things out to the good of His children and I just need to learn to trust in Him.
So I will enjoy the summer with my friends here and in Aug. move down south with an excited and expectant attitude. I honestly can’t wait to see what God has in store for me!! Will it be hard? You bet..but what doesn’t kill us makes us stronger.:)
Just a thought..
Amanda
4 Comments
brit
awww amanda, we are in similar situations, except i have no boyfriend i dread leaving. or anyone i dread leaving for that matter…but i do understand how you feel b/c i felt that way for a long time. i am SO excited to leave now, and i know that God will totally bless us both for doing what he wants us to do instead of staying here for the wrong reasons. just remember next year when you're missing everyone, i'm in the same boat and i'm praying for you! love ya!
Emily
Amanda- you will do great at USI…you know that's where God wants you. Think of how many things have worked out for you- you got a great scholarship, and have a good roommate that you already know. Remember what we talked about the other night at Starbucks- USI is going to be your mission field. I'm sure you'll love it there! I will miss you terribly, but 4 hours isn't so bad…I'll just come visit a lot. 🙂 I love you so much…praying for ya~
Amanda
Thank you both–what would I do without friends like you..
Emily–that was just the reminder I needed!! Thank you..
Brit–We will have to keep in touch and I will be praying for you as we both head off!!
Beth
A phrase I said to myself many times last year: "God is love and love NEVER FAILS!!!" God's will is truly the best place to be, though scary at times! I love you, Amanda, and I will miss seeing you (something I am enjoying greatly this summer), but I can't wait to hear about the friends you are impacting and winning for Christ! 🙂