I have come to love writing in my blog!!! But I think equally important I’ve grown to love reading other people’s blogs! Not only do I find out about them, but they often comfort and inspire me. By reading about their joys and struggles, I am able to see new light in my situation, and remember to laugh at life! I am so thankful for a mom who has constantly instilled in my this idea of enjoying life and always looking on the bright side. I don’t think I can ever rememeber a time when she has been depressed..she is always happy and bubbly (to my embarrassment sometimes..) I have certaintly endured my share of disappointments and failures..but every time, my mom has challenged me to get back up and move on with a smile on my face. I have to say though..lately is has been hard.
I don’t often understand God’s plan or why He places trials in my life, but I know He has a reason. Over break there has been one specific thing I’ve majorly struggled with..and with all the extra time I’ve had, God has showed how much it was a heart issue I am struggling with..( I know, we all joke about that..:) ) But I honestly thought there was just something wrong with me..and questioned God about it. Then the other night I was reading in my devotions about how every trial is a test of faith. Boy, am I glad my test is over yet..I would have failed miserably. Instead of trusting in my God, I just assumed He has made me wrong..which is a silly thought. He has given me the strength to keep fighting and digging deeper into His word to find answers. He has opened my eyes to His wonderful river of grace and shown me how much He cares..even if no one else understands. He has also shown me where I have sinned, and where I have made bad choices. I am so thankful for my relationship with my savior..it is the only constant thing in my life, and it has become the one thing I truly desire. I’m still growing..and will never arrive at perfection in this life. But I am thankful for those in my life who are patient with me..especially my parents..it is a daily process of putting off and putting on, and I have failed so many times. But those around me are ever-faithful to forgive me, and for that I am so thankful.
