1.The act of rejecting or the state of being rejected.
That might be my sole biggest fear–that one word. REJECTION. Not that anyone particularly likes it, in fact, you might need to get your head checked if you enjoy it, but it is a fear that I have seen more evident in my life the past year then ever before. I am always on the defense-always protecting me..hiding inside my shell and pushing everyone else away. And even the things I have done have often been done in the name of saving myself from rejection. Why I am so scared of it, I can’t tell you. Perhaps it’s the loneliness that tends to come with it that I don’t like, or the fact that another human being has the power to tell you that you aren’t good enough for them. and I have done my fair share of rejecting others..there are many people I am sure could testify..but most of the time, it wasn’t them I was rejecting, I was scared of them rejecting me so I did it first. I hardened my heart so they couldn’t break it. But last night..as I was sitting on my bed in tears over something my dad had said..I realized how much I was letting this fear of rejection rule my life. I was losing sleep over a fear that was founded on a lie. My dad isn’t going to reject me. But more then that, My heavenly Father will never reject me..that is all I need.
“Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the LORD your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you.” Deut 31:6
There it is..My God will never leave me. Not now, not ever! Even when it seems like everyone else has..or when it seems like I have rejected everyone else..there is always a place for me to go–right back into the arms of my heavenly Father. So, will I be instantly free tomorrow..probably not, but I am definately going to fight this and put myself out there. There is a God who wants me to humble myself before Him
“6 Therefore humble yourselves under the mighty hand of God, that He may exalt you at the proper time, 7 casting all your anxiety on Him, because He cares for you. ” I Pet 5:6-7
He knows the very number of hairs on my head, and knows every step of my path..being rejected will only cause me to draw future upon God’s strength and grace..therefore,
“And He has said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for power is perfected in weakness.” Most gladly, therefore, I will rather boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may dwell in me. ” 2 cor 12:9
I will all the more gladly boast of my weaknesses, for when I am weak, You are Strong.