Faith,  Social Justice

Confused..

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so I decided life is unfair…

Why in the world do people think that a 19 year old has enough wisdom to decide what they would be happy doing for the rest of their life? like seriously..I mean, I know you have those people with passions..things they have always wanted to do and they go to college and do it..and are happy. I have never been one of those people. I have never in my life been satisfied with something. Why I thought things would change when I came to college I don’t know. but here I am, a year into college with absolutely no idea what I want to do with my life. I mean, I know..I have so many dreams, passions, and desires..but how to put them all into a major and a decision seems impossible. and how to decide between the practical and the dream. do you go for what you know is safe or do you chase after a dream that might never happen? and do you do what your parents want or what you want–even though they have lots more knowledge then you do. And do you find a reason for doing it..or do you just do it and grit your teeth and hope things turn out ok on the other side? and what about what everyone says..do you listen to their advice or their experiences? it’s so confusing..I wish God would just whisper in my ears what I was supposed to do with my life. that would def. simplify things. He could throw in who I am gonna marry too:) but anyways..I’m just frustrated and overwhelmed and ready to be home..I miss my family..and I’m tired of living out of a suitcase.

..amanda

aspiring writer, mom to two sweet boys, lover of adventure, people, Jesus, and hot tea

4 Comments

  • Adam

    So you're confused too.. cool!
    I've always been and I'm still all twisted up about choosing the right major to have the life I've dreamed about. I don't know.. I guess that's why it's confusing.. hmm.. that doesn't make any sense.. whatever 🙂 well God has a plan for you and that may mean what your parents want or what you want.. or maybe both.. I guess he's the only one who knows.

    so when are you coming home?

  • chalupe with cheese

    If you do figure it out, you're one of the few who do. Even if you don't initially pursue your true dreams/passions/desires, never give up on them, as they will remain with you forever. Experience is invaluable, so learn from each and every one. I'll borrow from a quote that's always stuck with me, because all you can do is "learn the things that will help you succeed and the things that can cause you to fail". Education doesn't guarantee success, but it sure guards against failure. But, then again, how do you measure success?

    You'll be fine.

    One other thing that I've noticed in your last two posts ………… stop worrying so much about marriage until you're finished with school! (spoken from experience)

  • Nata

    i totally understand! i've got so many dreams of what i could do in my life time but i'm afraid that the major i chose could keep me from doing a lot of those. it's very frightening. everyday i ask myself, what does God want me to do and am i heading in that direction? i mean, what if i'm not! that thought freaks me out!

    all we can do is pray and try to think biblically with God's help.

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