God gave me what I want. Or what I thought I wanted. It was the thing I had dreamed about for so long, and finally it was mine. But now I didn’t want it..I had taken things into my own hands and had determined that I knew better-only to realize that all along God had only wanted the best for me, and wasn’t withholding something from me that I needed.
Isn’t that how it always happens? we want something so bad and God finally says, “Ok, you can have it,” and we promptly realize that God did know better and it really wasn’t what we wanted. This is a scary thought. The bible talks about how God gave them over to their sinful desires and let them do what they pleased-I don’t know about you..but I don’t want God to give me over to my sinful desires. I am thankful that thus far He has not allowed me to get too far into sin before providing escape and opening my eyes-and I pray that I never get to a place where God says, “ok, fine-do what you please.” I want to always be at a place where I am willing to wait on God’s timing so that when I do get it, it is better then I could have ever dreamed of or got on my own.